Maybe it wasn’t love at the time; but what it symbolized and what it meant was love. The first invitation, the first wanderlust gaze, the first touch of the console, the first thrill vibrating in her stomach. All of these had been pulsating at once so much so that she couldn’t spot a single detail until she replayed the scenario for the twentieth time in her head that night. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT is said to be a myth, but perhaps that’s just because it is impossible to spot until you know for sure. It’s a sixth sense that’s kept locked away until you earn the key. Sappy & overly sentimental but that can be allowed in certain aspects of life. Otherwise there wouldn’t be a name.
Saving the day. That’s what they did. Seeing the curve of her eyebrow as Clara expressed well-earned praise and disbelief; realising that the Doctor really didn’t know she was SPECIAL made her stomach knot and lips curl into a smile. And it made her decide it was her personal duty to ensure
that the Doctor never forgot how special she was.
But they didn’t always save the day and leave without a scratch. There were times when Clara, or the Doctor, or both ALMOST died. They were always in danger and Clara was okay with that ———— the adrenaline made her feel more alive than anything ———- but sometimes, it stretched to close to home. Seeing what the Doctor was capable of. All that suffering Clara had witnessed is
what drew her back to Earth. She finally realised for certain that she was in love, when she realised she couldn’t be. The Doctor wasn’t just some woman who’d whisked her away, and that trip reminded her of that.
And of course there was the inevitability of getting far too comfortable again. Clara’s walls slowly came apart, brick by brick until the little trick of hers ran dry. There were only so many times a day you could tell yourself you weren’t in love with someone for it to still be true. Twice a day was too many to kid anyone but herself. ( And she wasn’t even succeeding at that. ) When running, she started to forget these little rules of hers. She was in love with her again faster than it took the Doctor to realise Clara had burnt another soufflé, which was exactly when it hit her again. Amidst the puff of flour-smoke, Clara saw her smile. She coughed
through powder and Clara realised she never stood a chance.
Likely to be Clara’s favourite instance of this repeated epiphany, was when her heart sped up as the echo of the Doctor’s words rang in her ears. “ I love you. “ She was going to brush it off, pretend it didn’t sting but then she saw the panicked look in her eyes. OH. Suddenly every gesture, every look, every touch came flooding back to the forefront of Clara’s memory. Still, it seemed like a fairytale ending for it to be true. Her queries were answered by an abrupt pressing of lips against hers. She was in LOVE.
Hey cuties! I actually hit 400 a little while ago, but because I am living up to my turtle reputation, I am a fair bit above that now, but I still wanted to do a little something to celebrate and thank all of you!
As I have said many times before, I absolutely love playing Amelia Shepherd. In many ways, she has brought me strength, inspiration, and joy. Writing for her is ridiculous fun, and I have truly enjoyed every thread I have done with each and every one of you. Others of you, I have simply loved stalking reading your threads, even if we have not written together much, if at all. Whether we roleplay or talk out of character or you have just read my posts, I appreciate every single follower I have. If you are not on this list, please don’t be offended. I probably just do not know you very well yet, or I may have missed you.
Okay, wow, I meant to do this when I hit 1.5k last week but with my laptop dying (R.I.P. Phillip), I’m finally getting around to it (Phillip 2.0 is in). Which, by the way, wow, thank you guys so much. Never knew ya’ll would like Rogers and glad his prissy diva exterior didn’t scare any of ya’ll off.
Alright, here is it. If you’re not on it, its because I’m a dumb ass.
asgardianhammer ; You need to stop being so perfect. Mir, without you there would be no tumblr, I’d have left the damn thing and given up. You’re my #1 skype go to gal. Damn you for being so nice.
blackbladespurpleflames; Yoooo Azuka is Evelyn’s worst nightmare/best friend. You help Evelyn grow as a muse and you help me keep me help.
completelyundercontrol [ legatxs,]; BAE Without you I’d lose my shit, cause you keep me going and your muses challenge mine. I love how well we click and you are one of my snapchat baes.
coldwxrassassin; Satan, [RUDE] you are one of my Bucky’s that I love and yes our angst is too much to count. I can’t with you.
dragonofallevil; I LOVE YOU. Okay, I love you and I can’t because without you on kik i’d flip my shit and go crazy. You are my bae, my constant friend and I love you to pieces.
frostkingoftheapocalypse; Aye one of my favorite Australians. Also second person on skype I fucking talk to. Jesus I may love you but POISONOUS SPIDERS. May god save you from them, but yeah I’ll stay here and we can talk about our sexy muses on skype.
itsnotamagicalplace; LEA MY LOVE. MY DEMARKAN LOVE. You are my bae and jesus I can’t because damn you for being the first ever to open my eyes to shippy ships and urgh damn you cause I seriously love you.
impressedyet; Heyyyy bae, heyy you give me advice and though I was scared shitless to talk to you. But seriously I can’t begin to tell you how much I care for you.
jxwbreaker; DAUGHTER, I LOVE YOU YOU . Cause damn it you are my joy when I roleplay with Evelyn.
lxvel; WHOS ONE OF MY FAVORITE AUSTRALIANS AND SNAPCHAT BUDDY. I love you and you’re the first ever Hill and I can’t with you , and I love you.
lonelytimeladyinabox; SHHHHUT YER FACE. God damn you don’t know how attached I’m getting to you and its sooooo bad cause I don’t want to disappoint you.
notwithouteachother; I’M A FUCKING IDIOT AND I’M SO SORRY I JUST OMG I’M SORRY SERIOUSLY I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND YOU’RE AN AMAZING PERSON WHO DEALS WITH MY STUPIDITY SO WELL AND I CAN’T *SOBS* STACEY AND JANE ARE MINE FOR LIFE.
perezimovat; I love you and you’re the first James I roleplayed with and at times I feel like I annoy you but I can’t help but want to smother you with love. You’re so amazing and I wish people could see how lovely you are.
shieldintheice; GAH I can’t, I send you more crack than actual roleplay things and Eve just wants to touch the booty. But you’re amazing and I love how awesome you are and A TOTAL CUTIE
thewindriderororomunroe; I was hella scared to talk to you in the beginning, but now look at us. THEY HAVE A BABY ON THE WAY and I can’t with how amazing you.
viiduam; BAE, okay okay just my fav Nat and I can’t with how lovely you are and my heart swells every time we interact and jesus I can’t with how amazing you are.
virginia-aka-pepperpotts; AMI my baby. MY FIRST EVER ROLEPLAY BLOG AND MY DARLING WHOM I LOVE VERY VERY MUCH.
When I started this blog, I honestly didn’t expect much of anything to come of it. Woman makes one-off appearance in television show with lukewarm fandom reception… I thought Izzy and I were doomed to fade a few days in. But man did you all prove me wrong. The past two months have been amazing, and I feel honored and privileged to play such a multifaceted and underappreciated character. Thank you all, each and every one of you, for giving me the opportunity to do this.
To celebrate this milestone, I wanted to make a quickie little bias list. This is by NO MEANS comprehensive, as there are many other people I’ve loved writing with, stalking from afar, or talking to ooc. There are so many more people who’ve made this last two months fun But the blogs listed below are the partners that have had some effect on Izzy and me, challenged her as a character or me as a writer, helped me come up with some headcanon to add to her profile, etc.. Thank you all for sticking with me. I’m excited to write with you more and hope that you enjoy us as much as we enjoy you. (If I know you on multiple blogs, I just put down one, but I love them all. You know who you are.)
So my follower count has been growing and I recently reached 225+ followers, so I have decided to do my first follow forever on here. I am not great at sap out of character, so this little piece might just be hella lame, but bear with me. I have gotten to know a lot of you both in and out of character, and I truly appreciate all of the relationships that have been cultivated. So many nights have been spent staying up way too late because I don’t want to leave conversations with you guys or because I want to do ‘just one more reply’ before bed. You make me laugh and give me endless feelings and I adore each and every one of you. I am so grateful for you!
Amelia Shepherd is such an important character to me, who has gotten me through a great deal in my life. I love having the opportunity to play her with so many people, in so many situations, and it means the world to me that I have received such great feedback. I really love my little shit of a muse and all her RP partners.
I'm Not Saying I Know What Love Is (but if I did, it would be you)
